Best Health products and DIY

So, it's been a while. Welcome back. Past few months have been seriously busy, and honestly, finding time to write about mediocre topics is draining. Haven't really had anything to say, ya know?

BUT, I have recently gotten on the kick of health and natural ways to help your body. So, instead of complaining about who knows what, I've decided to share my experience and recommend different products and home remedies that work excellent, and are simple and easy to do at home.



1. OGX vitamin E shampoo and conditioner. Vitamin e is excellent for your hair, and the ingredients in OGX products are not as harsh on your hair. It costs about $6 at Walmart, and it smells awesome!



2. Stress Free Aromatherapy eucalyptus spearmint lotion. It comes in body scrub, pillow mist, bubble bath, body wash, body lotion, massage oil, and candle. This stuff is awesome, and all of their lotion is made with Shea butter and vitamin E. Depends on the sales, but usually this costs about $15. And its definitely worth it. BBW also does not test on animals. :)

 

3. Honest company sunscreen. If you're not familiar with the Honest company, they're all natural and environmentally friendly. You have to order online, and it can get pricey, but the products they have are absolutely great, especially for kids. Not harsh, won't cause irritation.











4. Banana boat self tanner. You won't see me in a tanning bed, but my skin is also so pasty that it would be nice to get a little color. This stuff works slowly, but you'll definitely see a difference in about a week. Be careful, though, if its not even it WILL streak and you'll look dusty. This stuff smells good and costs about $3.



5. Coconut oil. This stuff is amazing. You can use it for just about anything like moisturizer, you can make your own lip balm from it, you can eat it, cook with it, mix it with baking soda and have an all-natural whitening agent, etc. You can google uses, there are literally hundreds. Seriously, buy this stuff!



















Speaking of coconut oil, here are a few of my favorite things to do with it. :)


Mix about a tablespoon of coconut oil with a tablespoon of raw honey, put it on your face and wash it off with a washcloth 15-20 minutes later. Great for blackheads! You can use it 2-3 times a day, it won't dry out your face.

Take a little scoop of it and rub it between your fingers to warm it up. Rub it n your face for about 30 seconds, the put a hot washcloth over your face for a few minutes to open your pores and let it sink it. Wipe it off with the washcloth. Do this before bed, it feels amazing.

Take 1/2 cup coconut oil mixed with 1/4 cup coffee, straight out of the can, mix it together and scrub it on cellulite. It wont get rid of totally of course, but the caffeine helps reduce the look of those little puckers in your skin. You can use it anywhere, also. It feels good on the skin, and its a lot better than those perfume-y scrubs at the store. I suggest doing it in the shower, it gets messy.

Take 1/2 tsp baking soda and 2 tablespoon coffee grounds (from the filter after making coffee) and scrub it anywhere you don't want hair. You need to do this everyday for a week before you see a difference. The stuff in coffee and baking soda does something to the follicles so hair won't grow. You can use it anywhere.

Take one part baking soda and two parts water and rub it in your face. Steam your face BEFORE putting the mixture on by putting your face over a bowl of hot water for about 15 minutes. Wipe the mixture off with a washcloth. Great for whiteheads.

Take 1/2 cup of coconut oil and rub it in dry hair. Go by layers and one inch strands from root to tip. Put extra on the tips if you have dry ends Wrap your hair in a hot towel and let the oil do its thing for 20-30 minutes. Shampoo regularly after, preferably using something not harsh like OGX vitamin E shampoo. ;)

Soak your feet in lavender and peppermint Epsom salt and warm water for 10-20 minutes. Rub your feet with coconut oil and put aloe socks on. Sprinkle some baking soda in the water for extra odor-elimination. It also helps with foot fungus if that's a concern.

Add a teaspoon of Epsom salt to your favorite face wash for some extra all-natural exfoliation. Feels fantastic right in the morning.

Take one tablespoon of unflavored gelatin and two tablespoons of milk and microwave it for 10-15 seconds. Put it on your face ASAP because the gelatin sets fast. Let it dry and peel it off. Its gross to peel off, and the gelatin smells, but its a cheap, homemade pore strip that makes your skin feel good.

Oh and of course, TAKE YOUR VITAMINS!

 

I like vitamins, can you tell??

20 things I learned being 20

1. You don't have to choose what you're going to do for the rest of your life at 18.
Its totally natural to feel pressured into choosing a major/college/career right after you graduate high school. Spoiler alert, you don't! Its okay to go to school with your major being undeclared. Feel around different things, find out what you like. I promise, things will go better and will leave you a little less stressed. You'll find that the things you wanted to do, may not be the things you truly enjoy. Same with the things you don't see yourself enjoying, you may love it. Or, if you don't feel like going to school right off, don't go. It is your personal choice. Don't feel pressured to do something that you think you should be doing.

2. You don't have to like your job.
Guaranteed, you'll find a job at some point that you absolutely hate. That's totally okay. What's not okay is showing up to work and making it show that you hate your job. For example, customer service. Oh, people know if you hate your job, and things will not go smoothly a lot of the time. We gotta do what we gotta do.

3. Don't feel ashamed of being sexual.
Sexuality is something that's looked down upon when you're 18. You're supposed to be ashamed and embarrassed of it. Well, screw it. There is absolutely not a damn thing wrong with being in a sexually compatible, consensual, relationship. Or, maybe it's not necessarily a relationship. Maybe you're just two people having a 'thing'. As long as you're able to make your decisions, its consensual, and you set boundaries, don't be embarrassed of your sexuality. But please keep it at one person at a time, STI's and STD's exist, be aware and educate yourself on it.

4. Call your parents.
Just do it, especially if you live away from home. Trust me, sometimes you just need to talk to your mom or dad whether you know it or not.

5. Go to the doctor.
Do it. Not for the sniffles or like a mild headache, but if you have a serious issue with whatever body part, go to the damn doctor. Even when you don't feel bad, make an appointment every 5-6 months. Keep your health in check. College years are stressful. Hell, being an adult is stressful. Keep yourself healthy.

6. It's okay to not workout everyday.
I see all the time, girls going into college and making sure they count calories and go to the gym 4 hours a day. Guess what? You don't have to! Shocker, I know. Working out doesn't have to be this hellish experience that you dread. If you want to go, then go. But if you don't feel like it that day, then don't go. You're not going to die if you skip a few days (weeks).

7. Speaking of exercise, exercise for you, not for your boyfriend/girlfriend.
Pressure to be thin is an everyday thing here, unfortunately. But if you're with someone you love/loves you, don't go lose weight because they want you to. If you want to be healthy and better yourself, do it for you. And do exercises that you enjoy, not the ones that 'work best'. If you're doing an activity you enjoy, it won't be a chore. Don't let anyone pressure you into thinking you're not good looking enough or good enough because you don't look like a model.

8. Know how to change a tire.
It really isn't hard to do, and once you learn how to do it you'll be able to do it again. It is a very useful skill and there will come a time in your life when you need to do it.

9. Don't worry if your significant others' parents don't like you.
Take it from me, being in a relationship where your S/O parents don't like or respect you, is freaking tough. But honestly, from all the experience I have had, the best thing you can do is just focus on you. No matter what, there is always a chance that their mom/dad/brother/memere/great aunt/ whatever will not like you. If you are not doing anything to them, if you are not treating them badly or disrespectfully, chances are the problems are their problem. If they choose to find something to not like about you, it is NOT your problem to convince them otherwise. Because once they decide to dislike you, you will probably never win them over. You're happy, your boyfriend/girlfriend is happy, your life is good and your relationship is going great; why sweat the small things. Its not a big deal. Stop trying to impress them, focus on you.

10. Put down your phone.
Put own your phone while at dinner. Put down your phone when someone is talking to you. Put down your phone in class. Honestly, is face book stalking people more important than what is going on around you? That just gets me, put down the damn thing and experience face to face contact.

11. Take your vitamins.
I take 9. Plus multivitamins sometimes. You need to keep yourself healthy. Take your vitamins to not only keep the sick away, take them because they do wonders for your body. Vitamin D helps with depression. Biotin helps with skin, hair, and nails. Fish oil helps keep fat off your heart. Apple cider vinegar can help detox, plus it helps balance the good/bad bacteria in your 'lady bits'.
I mean, do I really need to go on?

12. Stop feeling guilty about eating dessert.
If you want to eat a piece of pie at 11 p.m., go for it. Stop making yourself stress over the fact that you are human. Repeat after me.. You. Are. Human. Humans like food, right? Humans like sweet things, right? Then go eat something! Eating a pie today, and eating a bowl of ice cream with sprinkles three days later will NOT make you blow up. I promise.

13. Dress how the hell you want.
If you want to wear short shorts, freaking go for it. If you want to wear a long skirt and a turtle neck, go for it. Stop letting ignorant people make you feel bad about dressing how you want. But of course, please keep it below your anatomical crotch, you can get fined for that stuff. And you know what? If sexist idiots decide to whistle at you, or try to grab at you, you have the right to tell them to fuck off. If guys can wear jeans down below their manhood and walk around shirtless, then you can wear some shorts and a t-shirt and own it.

14. Don't worry about being single.
Being single is not a bad thing. Stop constantly looking for someone because you feel shitty about being single. (Side note, don't let people make you feel bad about being single). It is perfectly okay to focus on work, school, family, friends, your cat, etc. Things will turn out in their own time. Don't force it, and own the fact that you have a little extra freedom that us tied down folks don't have.

15. Realize that the world doesn't care about you.
It sounds harsh, I know, but let me explain. Everything you do today, anything you'll say, anyone you'll see; in a year will anyone remember? Highly unlikely. Things happen, people change, the world keeps turning.

16. Everything that happened in high school, doesn't matter when you graduate.
You were the ;queen' of your school? No one cares. You were the best looking guy in your school? No one cares. You were a big track star that 'everyone loved'. No one cares. Things change once you leave high school. How many times do my friends and I talk about what happened in high school? Almost never. half of my friends didn't even know where I went to high school. So, don't be that person to live in the glory days because it will not matter how 'hot' you were at 17.

17. Learn how to make a resume, write a check, do your own taxes, balance a checkbook, etc.
I was lucky, I learned all that in high school. A lot of places don't offer classes like that. But, Google it if you need to. These are very important things that you need to learn how to do in your adult life.

18. You don't need to laugh at things you don't find funny.
Okay, this one sounds weird and a little silly, but hear me out. Most of the time, people don't know how to make people laugh without having a friend, family member, random person being the bud of the joke. If someone says something that offends you but thinks their funny, you don't have to laugh. Ladies, if a guy is not funny, you do not have to laugh at what he's saying. Just trust me, you'll understand what I mean at some point.

19. It is okay to have trouble loving yourself.
News flash, its okay to not love yourself. Its okay to not necessarily like who you are at all times. I don't like myself most of the time. But you know what? You deserve to love yourself. As you get older, things change. Body parts move and sag, your butt deflates, you may not feel like some 'hot' 18 year old anymore. And that's okay! What's important is that at the end of the day, no one is going to love you and your body as much as you, and you gotta embrace it. Respect yourself and realize that your body is beautifully different, and that truly loving yourself takes time. But focusing on the positive instead of the negatives will slowly make you love yourself.

20. Know you're going to inevitably lose people in your life.
How many of your best high school friends have honestly tried to keep in contact? How many have you tried to contact? Its not often high school friends stay friends in college and throughout adulthood. That is okay! You get older and the people you spend time with are not always going to be your 'bff' from senior year. It will happen at some point. You lose contact and you get busy with life and school and new friends, then you blink and its 5 years later. Don't fret the inevitable.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OJGUbwVMBeA

;) Enjoy.

10 things not to say the people with depression

1. “Everyone’s depressed.”
Okay, no. Everyone gets depressed, sometimes. Of course everyone feels awful after a bad day, its 100% normal. But, depression that is actually diagnosed is like any other illness of mental disorder that (requires) medication. For example, you wouldn't say that everyone has Alzheimer's because people forget things.


2. “Just look on the bright side! There are so many great things in your life!”
This is usually said by some well-intentioned person who has no idea how severe depression can get. Its like that person looks at you as if you look at life like one half of a plate is ice cream, and the other half mud; and thinks you are choosing to eat the mud. But, in reality, depression is like having a bratty little kid throw some more mud all over that plate and all in your face, and then they steal your ice cream. Basically, what I'm trying to say is that people with depression don't deliberately focus on the negative stuff, but when some kid throws mud in your face, it's hard to focus on that little bit of ice cream that's still on your plate.


3. “You don’t need to be on medication — it’s so over prescribed. Everyone’s on drugs these days.”
Okay, well, this isn't ADHD, (which is very over prescribed) it's depression. And many people who have been seen by very professional psychiatrists have been pulled out of holes by some medications. I bet you anything that you know some of those people, but you just don't know it.


4. “You won’t be able to do anything creative if you take medication. You’ll be a zombie.” 
That is a common misconception about certain medications. Yes, common side effects are dizziness and fatigue, but that doesn't mean you'll look like a person (zombie) that just walked off the set of 28 Weeks later. I promise. And actually, medication can be helpful because it helps you block out all the mud from getting in your glasses. Some people are more focused and driven in work situations because of their medication.


5. “A lot of people have it so much worse.”
I hate this one the most. It's like if a person is saying they are hungry, and some bitchy-middle aged woman says to you, "There are starving children everywhere who die daily, so you couldn't possibly be that hungry."
Obviously, we know. Of course there are people who have it worse, but those people are not me. I have my own severe problems and deep down issues that I would like to focus on at the moment, not other peoples'. And to be honest, this makes people who are depressed feel so much worse. So thank you, random stranger, for making me feel like an ungrateful a-hole because my depression cannot possibly compare to your sisters, cousins, friends, brother's depression.

6. “Happiness is a choice.”
Notice how people with depression, regardless of their gender, income, age, political views, where they live, what football team they route for; deal with the same feelings? We don't enjoy wallowing in our own miserable lives and repetitive thoughts. We do not choose to be unhappy. Let me repeat. We. Do not. Choose. To be. Unhappy. Work with us here.

7. “Do you have PMS?”
Yes, because part of my internal organs flushing itself out of my body is the reason that my brain works the way it does. I hope your I.Q. is higher than your age.

8. “All you need to do is exercise more.”
Exercise releases endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people don't kill their husbands. We get it. But exercise won't cure depression by itself. Will exercise cure a person's diabetes alone? No? Thought so.

9. “You’re just being dramatic.”
OH LAWD, PLEASE RELEASE ME FROM THIS HORRIBLE GRASP DEPRESSION HAS ON ME.

*Throws self dramatically on the ground and starts rolling around*

And by the way, our issues aren't the, I'm being emo--looking dramatically out the window--with my headphones in--waiting for my husband to return from war--phase. It's more like the, I'm too tired to shower--why am I crying in Wal-Mart right now--why am I still living--kind of feeling.

10. "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
If I hit you with my KIA, will that make you stronger?
As well meant as this sounds, as far as depression goes, what doesn't 'kill you', tells you you're worthless, that you don't belong in a healthy relationship/working environment, and if you see someone enough it'll just go away eventually by itself.


*Sighs loudly, stomp away angrily*

What not to say to someone in an interracial relationship.

If you're like me, and have ever dated someone outside of their own race, I'm sure you've heard a few of these disrespectful questions like these at some point:


1. Is it true what they say about black guys in bed?
Did you really just ask me about my boyfriends personal regions right here in Wal Mart? Well, if you really want to know, there are plenty of places on the Internet that you can Google to find your answer, because his business is none of yours.

2. Why don't you like people of your own race?
Okay, so just because I have a preference for black guy means I automatically hate white guys? Do you hate black guys because you're dating a white guy? No? Thought so.

3. What do his family and friends think about you being white?
Last time I checked I was with him, not his family. Besides, who the heck cares?

4. This is just a phase.
Because wanting to be with someone who makes me happy is a phase. Yea, I'll grow out of that in no time.

5. Aren't you worried about what your kids will look like?
Kids that look like Mariah Carey? Oh, how awful!

6. Oh, so you think you're black now?
Just because I'm dating a black guy doesn't mean I want to be a black guy.

7. You're a cultural traitor.
Oh, I didn't realize this was the 50's and I could only associate with white people. Sorry other white people.

8. No white man will want you after you date a black man.
Well, if it bothers someone that much, why would I want to be with them in the first place?!

9. He only likes you because you're white.
Oh yes, he'll take my pasty white legs over my personality and wit any day.

10. You're diluting the culture.
Oh? You mean the culture that's based off of MANY different cultures combined together? Bad, Tab!

;)

Six things to do in college.

1. Socialize as much as possible. Seriously, do it. For some reason, college friends will be closer than any high school friend. Everyone is trying to get to know each other, so making close friendships is much easier in college. Socializing is good because it helps you come out of your shell and have someone to go eat with, go shopping with, 'study' with, all that jazz.

2. Buy ear plugs. You'd have to go to an all-girl Catholic school to not hear people getting it on. Whether it is your roommate, your neighbor, or an overly-friendly girl down the hall; I guarantee you that you will hear a little somethin-somethin going down at some point. Plus, people are (almost always) obnoxiously loud late at night, so ear plugs will give you some peace at night.

3. Do your homework. Not just the gross 12-page essay on how Honey Boo Boo will change America, but the kind of homework you do to know where things are, and who people are. If you still don't get it, I mean always know who your teachers are, who the ladies in the business office are, and of course the super awesome tutors that are willing to help hopelessly confused freshman.

3. Write down every important thing. This means names, numbers, assignments, notes, everything. You never know when something will pop up and you don't have a phone number or a name to help you out. It's just common sense in general, but seriously... Write. Down. Everything. Important.

4. ALWAYS have a sober college friend that doesn't go out or drink that you can call if you need a ride. Seriously, DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE. I saw an accident right outside my window of some idiot totaling six cars, including his own. Do not, absolutely ever, never ever ever, drink and drive. (Torry Millette, I'm lookin at you. Call me if you need a ride! don't do anything stupid!)

5. Keep track of your money. Money is probably the most important thing you'll have in college. Do not spend it on stuff that you don't need. And especially do not choose clothes/makeup/alcohol/drugs over anything you need for school, ever. Because when you suddenly need another 85$ book for some class that doesn't even matter, no one will care if you spent your last dollar on those 'totally awesome earrings you saw at Claire's'. Especially the teacher. (P.S. always keep 20-40$ hidden away in a binder or a pair of undies you don't wear, just in case. Sh*t happens in college.)

6. Do not sleep around! There are things out there called sexually transmitted diseases, in case you didn't know. There are people from everywhere, you don't know what a person could have. Even if they know it or not. Seriously, I didn't sleep around in college, and I'm happy for it. For all the stories I've heard, I'm glad I actually stayed smart and didn't hump everything in sight. (And trust me, there are many people who WILL hump everything in sight.) Yea, everyone says sleeping around is what you do in college, but don't be that person who goes to a doctors office and finds out you have gonorrhea or who knows what else. Seriously, these things are not a joke. Be smart about your vagina.

Bringing up the old stuff.

So I was going through my laptop, and found these things I wrote back when I was 14, 15 and 16. Let me know what you honestly think. I think they're juvenile, but hey, I was just a kid. Oh, and they don't have titles. Never had them, never wanted them.

Nothing but a waste of space. That's how you think, right? Worthless, shameful, imperfect. Broken beyond healing. All because of one person. The words they spew still sting like venom; slowly rotting you to your core. You can't help but to keep your thoughts unvoiced, hidden behind cracked walls.

The mind is powerful thing. The way it works fascinates and confounds whomever is curious of its' depths. You can never know what someone is truly thinking; how they're mind is working. Yes, adults have far more wisdom or 'intelligence' than the younger generation, but have you ever known exactly what is going on in the mind of someone who's not as wise? Not as intelligent? The teenage mind baffles anyone who dares to brave its’ waters. You can never know what we're thinking. The abnormalities inside will have you wondering how that person is still functioning, how they're still alive. The teenage mind is an amazing thing; it can confuse you, it can make you smile, but most importantly, it can make you feel sadness on a whole other level. Some say teenagers just have attitude and are nothing more than delinquents. I say, do you know how they feel? Do you know what they've been through? Everything based on experiences, and memories. Memories are what we live off of. A final breath we take from the reality we drown in. No escape. We are prisoners of our own sub-conscience battles. Torturing ourselves for that one memory that makes us smile for just a moment. Why should anyone judge a person who is crying out for help, but doesn't have the words to say it? They don't have enough power to voice out what they are going through. We are strong in many ways, constantly mimicking elation we may have felt at a simpler time. We are masters at fake smiles and falsifications. We can mask the ugliness we feel inside ourselves. The teenage mind engages itself in emotions no one else would dare to go near. Why do we do this? Why should we make ourselves suffer for something so common? Happiness is something that should never be thrown around. Happiness doesn't come from material items for us; happiness comes in the moments we treasure, and experiences we abide by. We keep everything inside something so small, so delicate. We take so much care of something that should be destroyed, and we want nothing more than to shatter it. To deface the barrier we cower behind. We'll have happiness one day, and we may actually have a real smile, not an imitation of our desires.

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Who am I? The question we all ask ourselves. Are we who we really want to be, or are we the people everyone expects us to be? I ask myself this question everyday. Am I just a figment of someone's imagination making me into the person society molds everyone into, or will I be one of the lucky ones who'll find a way to a personal freedom? Everyone expects you to be perfect, to be some amazing tribute to this world, to know all the answers. In reality, no one knows all the answers. We lean on others to make the decisions we're too afraid to make. We look at ourselves in the mirror through all the things that make people believe we're not just a bunch of imposters, and realize that we don't need all the access things we cover ourselves with. I think of this, and not even the tears can wash away the fakeness that I plaster all over my face. It's a harsh world, but we just have to dig deeper, and until the minute before you die; you'll never know who you are, never know who you could of been.

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Eleven O’clock. The sound of an engine starting makes you reminisce about what day it is. You see it coming up, your heart pounding so hard you hear a ringing in your ears. The door slides open, stepping out and grabbing your black mesh duffle bag from the back seat. There it is. The familiar scent of fresh cut grass and bright yellow paint makes you smile as you walk over to the guys. The suns bright, and you have your Gatorade hanging out of your mouth. Every moment that pasts makes your head fly through everything you’ve learned so far, thinking of which will come first. More and more people arrive as you get arranged, mentally and physically. Eleven thirty. You head over to the turf, staring at the opponent, wondering what their thinking right now. Minutes pass as you head over to the bench, focusing on the fact that your about to go face to face with your number one rival. Twelve O’clock. You hear the whistles blow. It’s game time.

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“Do you trust me?” Were the only words to come out of his mouth, his mind was off to another world. His eyes were light, but had something behind them, burning, insinuating at me. His grip was tight on my shoulders, and he kept it that way. The seriousness of his expression sent me into a world of curiosity; ‘what is he thinking?’ Being alone with him, made me realize how vulnerable he was, but also, how incredibly vulnerable I was, too. The sound of my breathing, the heartbeat thumping through my chest furiously, he could see I was nervous; and I was. His grip slightly loosened, slipping his rough hands into mine. He took a few steps back, leading me from the kitchen to the living room. All I could do was look down, too scared, yet to excited to look him in the eyes. Once he let go, I made my way to the couch. He looked at me with a dim smile on his face and walked over, standing above me. He grabbed my hand and lifted me up onto my feet again, this time, smiling generously. The look in his eyes reminded me of what he had asked, but I was so hypnotized, so captivated, all I could breathe out was a simple, “Yes.”

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I guess you can call it finding yourself, what I did. I don’t regret the decisions I’ve made; I regret the time I had to make them. I can’t apologize for something I’ve already done. That’s what’s funny about the past, you can forget about it, or block it out, but you can’t change it. The only way I can explain my situation is starting from the beginning, when my life just began.

Nineteen years old I was on my own. Second year in college, and still unsure of what I wanted out of life. That’s where I met him. The awkwardness of middle school age came back as I thought that this person might turn out to be mine. We moved in together second semester. Funny how a year ago I was under my parents’ roof and now I was with somebody I loved, taking care of each other.

It was a simple type of love, but we knew we were secure. We had a fireplace that we would roast marshmallows at whenever it got a bit chilly in our tiny apartment. We would go to the candy store down the street every Friday night, and sit by that fire stealing each others’ best candies. He would always steal my taffy whenever I wasn’t looking. They were my favorite, but I let him take them anyways.

As the years wore on, we grew more tense toward each other. He stayed out late, and I stayed in. I got lonely, and I got angry. Those nights by the fire were gone and replaced with nights of arguments, frustration, and tears. He would always apologize, though. And kiss me like he did on that first day.

Nothing was ever fixed, always replaced with newer problems facing us both. The first time I saw him with another I felt as if my world had fallen apart. The same hands that use to hold mine by that fire all those nights were now occupied with a stranger, an imposter.

I let tears fall as I pack his suitcase. I left on the steps next to the mailbox, and gently laid down a note on the top of it. I knew this wasn’t going to be easy, letting go of the person I loved, and shared so many secrets with. He was mine; and we just, meshed.

As I waited, I remembered everything he has ever said to me, everything he’s ever done for me. He was my best friend. All the notes he would leave me in my notebook, all the silent hugs he would give me while I was crying, meant nothing. My heart shattered as I put my head in my hands, fighting back emotions I’ve never felt before.

I saw him walk towards those stairs he had been walking up for years now, and his facial expression grew stern as he read more and more into the note. The look on his pale face showed me he understood what was wrong; and as he picked up his suitcase, he looked up at the window, and gave me one last smile. I could tell he was hurt, but I deserved better.

As the days went on, I grew lonelier. Missing my best friend more each day. Missing the way he smiled, the way he smelled, the way he held my hand, and most of all missing the way he would hold me on those chilly nights. Telling me everything will be okay.

So I sat there, on the same spot we would sit at every Friday night, looking at that same fireplace. Wishing he was home again.

The dog Paradox.

A good dog doesn't usually fear many things, like cars, bikes, garbage trucks.
But then there are those who fear hair dryers and squeaky toys.

A normal dog doesn't fear bears, or mountain lions, or freakin' sharks.
But they will not make eye contact with the most innocent little kitten.

Good dogs like being clean, not muddy, and free of any left-overs from being outside.
And then there are the ones who like to roll in mud, eat various types of poop, and then decide to lick themselves in the worst places, and then proceed to lick you in the face.

Some dogs try to avoid the people that you like, and even 'hide' behind you if they try to pet them.
Then there are the dogs who (purposely, in my opinion) LOVE the people you can't stand.

(especially the creepy, dirty people)

There are dogs who have no care when you pay a random person to cut their man/lady bits out or off.
But then still try to hump everything in sight.

Every once and a while you might bump into them, or kick them, or trip on them.
But some dogs will just come running back to you, tail between legs, acting like it was their fault, and they are sorry.

There are those dogs who will eat poop, throw it up, eat the vomit, and then poop that out an hour later.

..And then try to eat it again.

Some dogs will eat everything. like q-tips, toilet paper, tampons, tin foil, boxes, shoe laces, grass, even the stuffing from their chew toy.
But then look at you funny when you try to feed them something actually edible like fruits, or snacks.

Dogs have an amazing sense of smell. So why do they have to go centimeters away from another dog's butt to sniff it.

If you're smell is that amazing, just do it from 10 feet away..

Some dogs have many fears, like: fireworks, loud noises or bright lights, even baths for some reason..
Even though none of those pose absolutely no threat to them.
But what they should be afraid of, like cars, weed whackers, tractors, etc, they just want to be friends with.

But a dog's biggest fear is being left alone. Whether it be for 3 seconds, or a day.
Their reaction is always the same:

I MISSED YOU SO MUCH! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE BACK. OMG OMG OMG!

 

 

Dog's are our best friends, and we are theirs. But they will go their whole lives without even knowing our names..

 

Dogs are unfortunate animals to own, because when they get older; (unlike kids who turn into teenagers, then adults) they die of old age before they even get to their 'teenage' years.

 

So you spend countless hours training it, feeding it, making it into the best damn dog you can, this poor animal dies not very long after.

 

I guess that's why we love them so much, though, because their lives aren't lengthy, logical, or deliberate; but an explosive paradox of fuzziness, sharp teeth, and happiness.

 

And that's just fine with me.